Never Knew I Needed

Kinda scared to let love in but....

"Forget the risk and take the fall. If its wat you want, its worth it all."

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I've had a total of 7 hours of sleep in the past 2 nights; it might be all the school work that I've been doing or maybe its the change in weather, but my visions been cloudy.

In my efforts to clear my vision, I've been exploring the endless possibilities of answers to all the questions I've been asking myself. But at the end of the day, I've realized I will never find the answers by just sitting here and pondering. I won't find it by asking other people's advice.

Answers come to you by action. If you're looking for the answer, go out there and get it. I'd love to do just that but the thing is, I've been scared to.

I'm not scared because the answer might be just full of disappointment or shy of my expections ; because honestly i'm expecting the worst..but I'm scared because it might be everything I want. But you see, I'm scared to let love in. Because once upon a time, I had a fairy tale love but some good things come to an end. But all things that come to an end leave room for something better to come along. I haven't been able to completely love and let love in, until now--but I wonder, is it too late? As cliche as it may sound, it's better to lose your pride to the one you love, than to lose the one you love because of pride.

So do I forget all the risks and take the fall? But like I said, I've been scared to let love in.

The rain called for blogging...

“The truth is, everybody is going to hurt you, you just gotta find the ones worth suffering for...”

Chaos

My mind is wandering all over the place.

Supposed to be working...

I'm supposed to be working but everyone on my team has left for the day so I'm kinda getting sidetracked. Haha. I'm so happy its the weekend! This has been a loooong weeek. I got two A's this week that I am sooo happy about and want to celebrate! =)

Tonight, I'm trying to decide whether to go back to vallejo or not. AMA (the association i am an officer in) is holding a dodgeball tournament at Sky High sports, its trampoline dodgeball! I'm trying to get some friends come to sac (which is hard to do) so they can come cuz its all free! Oh well we'll see. If no one wants to come then I guess i'll go back to vallejo..and probably do nothing!

Oh gosh i'm getting even more sidetracked i'm looking up flights to NY haha. its so cheap if i just buy it right now! I'm looking at the first week of june since i obviously have to work and have summer school.. should i book it? or $49 on tickets to la! hmmm i just wanna travel everywhere in the world..

i should prolly get back to work now haha this blog was kinda a buncha nothing!

Adjusting.

I'm having a hard time adjusting back into the groove of things. School and work again! Uhgh, spring break messed me up! I only had to work on the Monday of my spring break and I was off the rest of the week. It was a vacation well needed! I had tons of fun in long beach, la, and disneyland. It was actually the first time I really took a vacation from work! But man oh man, I came back and realized that I have two tests this week and two tests next week! Snap! Hahaha. I panicked. The test I have on Wednesday is like the craziest class I've ever taken. i hate it! Business law is no joke. I don't know how I'm supposed to get through this. Thursday I have a test in my PR class, it shouldn't be that bad. At least i'm off from work on Friday for Good Friday. I get to go home early and go to church!

I also just realized I haven't blogged in ages, not that anyone cares haha. Its so hard not having a laptop. I might just get a mac. Damn, it would be my third laptop. Horrible. But I seriously don't even have the funds for it at allllll. We'll see. I needa shake off the spring break and seriously get my mindset right. Only a few more weeks till school is done so I better do well on my remaining projects and tests. Oh dear...